You know how you go into a clothes shop and you think something is really gorgeous and would look so lovely on you, but you shouldn't really. And then you try it on just to see what it looks like, knowing it is going to be gorgeous, but then it look hideous and not at all how you expected and just makes you look really short or extra wide or something. And you then breathe a sigh of relief because you couldn't afford it anyway, or you feel a bit disappointed because you were going to treat yourself today.
Well, you don't really have that option when you are making something for yourself. I have been planning a top for myself for at least 6 months. I have gathered the patterns, the fabrics, the notions and waited and waited for the time to make it. Over the last 4 days I have learned so much about working with different fabrics, about linings, about different sleeves and overall I am quite proud of what I have made. Ok so it is not perfect, but that is mostly on the inside so if only I wear it, only I will know about it. I kept trying it on as I went and it was coming together just the way I had hoped. As I sewed the side seams up I could really get an idea of how the finished thing would look, and it looked awful. I look so huge in it and there are fitting issues at the back that I am not sure I can, or want or fix! I haven't quite finished, Im not sure how the hem the delicate fabric, and I haven't got around to the buttonholes on the sleeves yet. And I'm not sure I will.
What should I do, when I have spent a lot of time and energy and a certain amount of money on something I can't wear? Aargh!
